Some days are bad, some days are really bad. This week hasn’t been the best week. A couple of wrong decisions. Been busy (as usual). I stopped talking about me being busy by the way. ‘Cause it really came to me that if I am really busy then perhaps I should spend less time complaining that I am busy.
I still get amused once in a while with videos like the following. They had this Optimus Prime dancing with the music. That really made my day, I hope you don’t think I’m nerdy or what.
And then I go back to work. Work and back to bed. Bed and back to work. A typical routine that troubled me the pass couple of weeks especially. It turns out that I’ve been slow. And stress didn’t really help. I seem to work slower with stress.
I stopped reading my books. I read a lot of nonsense, we’ll leave that to next time. I returned all my library books. I brought back a Python book by the way and once I read the first couple of chapters I realized this book is more of a productivity destroyer. I chunk the book back into the library it came from and returned to work.
You see what I mean by work here is basically work work, school work and friend work.
We all know what’s work work already - it’s basically work in return of monetary value.
Then we have school work which is basically work in return of knowledge. I value knowledge a lot. I love to learn. I don’t have the time.
And finally there is what I call friend work. It really isn’t the traditional type of work as in you work because you want something in return. In reality, ‘friend work’ - as I call - is merely the act of maintaining friends with people (which I admit I’m not at all great at). You basically get closer friends in return by doing friend work and in return we get unexpected pleasure. I use the word ‘unexpected’ because in my opinion, if you were to expect something to come out of dinners with friends or even just a phone call to a friend, it seems to be not much different from work work.
I really is pretty hard to maintain friends and provide for them unconditionally. I often think really hard about friendship, kinship and blahblahship. My friend once told me that there’re 2 types of friends - a mutual friend and a ‘liability’. Liabilities are people whom are seeking you as a friend, come to you when you trouble and periodically just disappear in your life till the next time they’re in trouble.
So I started to count liabilities. Who are my liabilities. Who actually come to me when in trouble and disappear somehow. And then I realized there’re like, erm, a lot of people actually. Then comes to the question if they’re worth helping the next time round.
I think about it. And I think really hard. Eventually I came to this decision that I will help, perhaps not to the extend like I would help my better friends. But I’ll still help. Helping in hopes of maybe one day - just one day - when in trouble, that person might just help you when you seek him or her. The only difference, may I excuse myself, between work work and this type of friend work is that in work work, you work in expectation of something in return. Well… And in this type of friend work, you sort of work in a hope - not an expectation - that somehow, someday, the appropriate someone would be there for you when you need some help.
Anyway, the above is just some thoughts I have and I am writing it down more as personal note.
