//beconfused

National Day in Singapore is over. It’s quite a milestone toward finishing my national service. The whole National Day affair exists as one of my many milestones through my time serving the nation (yeah, it sounds nice).

With National Day passed, the next milestone to pass is the end of the International Monetary Fund meeting. And soon, I’ll probably start clearing leaves and offs. And I’ll just look forward to Christmas as my next milestone.

I keep looking forward to a later event to come in hopes of passing time faster. I’m beginning to go into the stage where all that matters is I finish national service and get the hell out of there.

_(Never polish your boots, you come to my camp! Yes, I drew the excellent art of course.)_

Sometimes I wish so much to jot down what has happen in camp in my blog, but I just can’t. The issues aren’t confidential but they remain to be sensitive to a certain extend. You won’t really know who would be reading, who would be secretly monitoring. I’m always having that fear. But I am going to let loose more I guess. I feel like speaking, yet not speaking. It’s kind of in a dilemma at times.

I often wonder if the fear of posting about my life in army would get me into trouble. I seldom post about my life already if you guys have noticed. It’s been more than a year pass my enlistment day, I just see my journals getting lesser and lesser and my YouTube videos getting more and more.

It’s about time I revert back anyway. I’ll post more journal-type posts. The videos would still be around. I love them, really. But I need somewhere to write. If it were to be too sensitive to publish, perhaps I’ll do so in a form of a private blog, though it totally sucks maintaining two blogs.

And if you’re reading my blog and just simply don’t comment, perhaps you can give me a comment so I know you guys are reading.

Possibly related:

1. now//signals
2. Things got a little better, I got a little happier
3. prior//service

Tags: art, national service