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Yesterday, I took the bus 174 back. It feels different. And I know it’s not the rain that causes this difference. It’s something else.

I felt lighter (although I ate quite a lot).

Why lighter? It’s the end of examinations for me. Just because of that? It’s more than that. It’s possibly the last time I ever take an examination paper. I am in third year Biotechnology (Bioinformatics). This is my last year, next semester would be an industrial training program.

The examinations are over. I struggled through them, barely making it through for all them, no thanks to my last-minute-ness.

First, there was Animal Cell Culture, I will pass that, kudos to my girlfriend who is pretty good in that. I didn’t study a lot for that actually. Then there was Genomic Techniques and Data Mining and Data Warehousing. I’m going to pass them. If I fail, it must have been some bad luck, probably offended God sitting in heaven.

There was still school 2 weeks ago and all I can recall is that I was rushing and rushing for a number of assignments. I barely made it through too.

There was the Web Application assignment that eat away my sleeping time. That time I just work and work and work all day and to late in the night. I slept for 4 hours sometimes even. It’s torturing that for once, I felt so depressed over it that I cried. It is the anguish of not being able to complete my work and the failure to comprehend the misbehavior of certain ASP.NET components that result myself into such a pathetic mental state. [I did not complete it in the end still.]

Around the same time of the Web Application ordeal, there was the Final Year Project deadline that my group is trying to meet. There was the report that we supposed to submit. We rushed to compile it and show to our supervisor. The report took a long time, but I am satisfied with our work. And after handing in the report, there was the presentation. We sucked badly on the presentation.

During the presentation, I trembled. I looked at the panel of judges, after which they looked back emotionlessly. I tried to speak naturally, but it’s obviously the lack of practice that cause me to miss my points. During the question and answer session, it’s worse. I don’t know what the hell am I answering. I’m just taking the cue from my mates and restructuring the words into sentences for audio output to the judges.

And just when we thought the presentation is over, there was the log book to rush on. It can’t meet the deadline until I had to lie to our supervisor and Dr. Cui that we forgot to bring and would hand in it the next day. I’m really sorry for that, we really had no time.

During these times, I slept late and woke early just to rush and rush. It not only caused me mental problems. Also physical one. I sat so much on the computer table’s chair to work on my Web Application assignment that I developed some sort of butt rash or something. The doctor says I glued my ass on the damn chair for too long.

These awful times come to an end already. The examinations ended too. I felt lighter. I finally reached the exit of these stress. I would love to use the metaphor that there is this door here after all the stress and I opened it, it is then followed with intense light shining right onto me signifying that I gained nirvana or something; but that seriously is just a lame sight to visually in my mind.

This lightness is caused by the lifting of burdens in school. Burdens such as assignments, examination papers and several others. As I mentioned, next semester would be industrial training program. There won’t be examinations. If I were to stick with just a polytechnic diploma, it would mean that I do not have to take anymore examinations already. I can finally put my school life behind (slightly) and get a good one month worth of rest, for the holidays has finally began.

And having said that, it’s time to have fun.

Possibly related:

1. project//close
2. enhanced//motivation
3. Happy new year every human!

Tags: backtrack, school